The Struggle.
Yesterday, I received a call from a person who I know well that blindsided me. They were like a wild animal backed into a corner. This has happened so many times that I had set up boundaries so I wouldn't get hurt again. It had been a while since we last talked, and this was an out-of-the-blue phone call, so I didn't have my defenses in place. They blasted their anxiety on me and then hung up.
Stunned, I took a sip of water from my glass. My hand was shaking so hard that the water almost spilled out. My nervous system was rattled and the tears began to flow.
The Obstacle.
My usual go-to of punching and kicking (muay thai) to discharge stuck energy wasn't a possibility because I'd put my back out a week ago. Knowing that releasing this wild energy needed to happen, I went for a walk and called up a good friend. There's something soothing about talking it through and having a witness.
After much contemplation, I came to the conclusion that I am the obstacle.
The most important thing for me to do is to strive to create and maintain peace in my heart. If I don't, then I am not able to serve others or live the life I want to live.
My ego is the obstacle.
The Overcoming.
I suspect that I'll be unpacking this relationship until I take my last breath. That's just how family can be.
Gabor Mate said, "There's nobody to blame, just something to understand". I'm putting focus on understanding myself, my reaction, and how I would rather react. The most difficult relationship, as it turns out, is with myself.
*In what ways is my ego getting involved? How can I let that go?
*What would I rather my response be to this person?
*I say that I want to put love into the world and create safe spaces. How does this interaction help me with my mission?
We all have difficult relationships in our lives. Are these questions helpful to you at all?
May we continuously learn about ourselves, stay curious and seek understanding. May we extend grace to ourselves and in hopefully, enjoy this journey.
From my heart to yours,
Teresa.
What does this have to do with small business coaching? Well, I want to be a bit vulnerable with you in these newsletters so you can know that your process is safe with me. As an entrepreneur, your business and personal lives are intertwined. When you start to become aware of our limiting beliefs, you can shift our thinking and really start accomplishing our passion-work.
